You must speak to be heard, but sometimes

you have to be silent to be appreciated ...

the previous post . i really felt bad . just being paranoid . i want 100%

of his attention, that's all . a relationship is like that . i should have known

it better . its not perfect . conflicts and arguments are inevitable . it occurs

cause we have a difference of opinion . and it doesn't help when i always

think i'm right in everything . always assuming he is thinking the

same and when he doesn't, i'll get irritated .

what he said was true . how is he able to understand me when i won't even

let anyone enter my world . all too often i blame him, rather than telling

him how i feel which is far more productive . and i tend to let little things

go by and keep the irritation bubbling within me until one more thing

happens and i explode being over-reactive to something minor .

its just me i think . i brought myself into the state that i'm in . its not that

he don't understand me, i just don't let him . i should start to avoid letting

small issues build into large conflicts, say how i feel as i go, rather than let

it fester inside of me . put myself in his shoes, try understand his position

and validate how he is feeling . i should stop being a self-centered brat

and blaming him for everything that makes me unhappy .....

its okay noww . and i need to grow up already . [but i don't want !

too bad . =P] babe, sayang you ... ! but please eh, u still

own me my whopper .

GOODNIGHT .