a blessing and a curse .

Lately . many asked me why i'm single and why i don't seek to date

much, after being single for long and that the fact i'm turning 21 .

my girlfriends, my grandmother, my mom and those i don't

even know well seems to be worried that i'm not with

anyone right now .. well, here's what i think/feel ...

i just want everyone to know that i'm not commitment phobic,

i don't hate man, i never had a bad experience, i'm not on a quest

to being a nun and that i'm alone but definitely not lonely ... in

fact, i'm very happy and content . and come on, it's not

like i'm planning to get married anytime soon ... -_-"

there are reasons why i'm single, i chose to be one . i don't see the

need to have someone exclusive right now . this is the time for me

to develop my own interests and well being .. i'm sure everyone

have dreams and likewise, same goes for me . i know you can

have the best of both worlds, but i rather focus on just

one now . that's the only way i'll pass half of it ...

i love being trouble free and independent . i know what's good and

what works for me . there's no asking for permission, no guilt and

i can do whatever i want, when to do it without having to fess up

to anyone . i'm 21 ! leave me alone to enjoy the benefits of being

single and just to enjoy myself . i'm sure there will be plenty

of time to love the responsibilities and be stressful being

in a relationship later, when i'm ready . HAhaHA !!

with that said, don't bother to fix me up ok . i find it creepy

when people try it . hahaha !! i'm still open to options

though, and i do understand the wonders and blessing

- of a good and healthy relationship .. it is the

greatest gift afterall, right ? ...

Insyallah .